Your Secret

robbiewebster · **Thu Mar 31, 2005 11:25 pm Your Secret**

tell me something about yourself that you have never told anyone before, it could be anything in the world, it doesnt matter how small or big it is. it could be serious or funny, anything you want.

here's mine:

the person that the people around me see is the person that i want to be, but no matter how hard i try, i can't be that person when i'm by myself and there is no one to keep me accountable.

Leo Wyatt · **Thu Mar 31, 2005 11:32 pm**

I always try to fit in but don't. I try to be popular here but I know I am not funny.

Theresa · **Thu Mar 31, 2005 11:35 pm**

robbiewebster · **Thu Mar 31, 2005 11:40 pm**

Leo Wyatt · **Thu Mar 31, 2005 11:42 pm**

Thanks Theresa loves ya too....

Maybe I need to loosen up a bit

B'Elanna Torres 7 of 9 · **Fri Apr 01, 2005 1:39 am**

Here's my secret... there's only a select few ive told:

I can't stop thinking about how I a paid company member at dance, yet i look like a piece of crap when i dance. It's SOO frustratung, and I don't know what I can do to get better and not suck everytime i try to do any dance step. I should be so much better than I actually am, and i HATE it that i'm not. I should be able to hold my leg higher than I can now, i should be able to do more turns, i should be able to dance on pointe for longer than one stupid mermaids dance without my feet falling off (I need new pointe shoes, but can't afford them).

I feel awful about myself, and humiliated when I skrew up on something in front of everyone b/c I'm a company member, i shouldn't be a skrew up. I should be better than everyone else in the class, but personally I think i'm just absolutly awful! It totally sucks! I wish I could take more classes, but my schedule and body for that matter only allows for so much, and I'm taking everything I can!

I feel so ashamed and bad about myself in class, especially when i see the girls in the level right below me doing stuff better than me. I HATE it that i suck so much, and i HATE it that i can't be better - i try, honestly i do! I don't deserve to be in the company. I don't deserve to be paid even a nickel for any show. Everytime i invite people to come see my performances, i feel so guilty that they have to pay $18 to see me perform -- that the entire audience has paid that much to see me perform. Heck, i should be paying them to watch me.

How my friends Andrea and Sara can go on stage and perform, and get paid for dancing as they do, I don't get it! THey're BAD dancers! They take ZERO classes, but with Andie, at least she looks 1/2 decent. Sara on the other hand looks horrible!! They get the main parts in ALL OF OUR SHOWS because their mother is the director, and does all the casting..hmm... iimagine that! I get ZERO recognition for being the ONLY company member that takes class AT ALL, and I take it religiously 3 times a week (more if i can)!! It's not like i have all the free time in the world either! I'm going to school full time, working part time, and when we're working on a show i'm at dance 5 days a week!

If only I could dance like Amber or Carisa, I wouldn't feel so bad. If only I could dance like Christine or Julia, I wouldn't be so upset, and they're not even in the company. I want to talk to Amber my ballet teacher about this so bad, but there's no way to bring it up, and no purpose. I dunno what i'd say, but she's just the one I want to talk to, but it'd sound so self centered and selfish and stupid if I did. What would be the point anyways, it's not like it'd get me anywhere.. i'd still suck.

It's just frustrating... UNBELIEVABLY frustrating you can't even imagine!!

I apologize for ranting... just replying to the post!

anywaythewindblows · Lieutenant, Junior Grade Joined: 01 Apr 2005 Posts: 74

I'm no good in a commitment, I always change my mind

ravenstar · **Fri Apr 01, 2005 11:30 am**

i was up late last night on computer.

AndrewBullock · **Fri Apr 01, 2005 12:36 pm**

I've always tried to help people out, but sometimes I go to far. If I try to help something it'll only get worse. (If you have a problem or something don't get me involved. I'll just make it worse.)

God bless,
~Andrew B.

Seven of Nine · **Fri Apr 01, 2005 1:23 pm**

I'm always worried I'm going to screw up. I find it very difficult to make any decisions because I'm worried it'll be the wrong one. I'm also completely dependant on Johny. If it weren't for him, I wouldn't be here, wouldn't eat, probably not even really get up in the mornings. I'm petrified I'm going to lose him.

harrykims#1fan · **Fri Apr 01, 2005 8:03 pm**

secret bout me.................I Speak japanese

Captain Patrick · Commodore Joined: 06 Mar 2005 Posts: 2421

My seceret is that i am very very very shy and hate talking to people. Unless they online like ya'll then i got no problem talking.

Sonic74205 · **Fri Apr 01, 2005 8:23 pm**

borgslayer · **Sat Apr 02, 2005 12:14 am**

The secret no one knows until now is I can hear things in my head like a radio station in my head. Wierd enough, once I heard an Aerosmith Song called Crazy & I dont want to miss a thing right on my ears but no radio was on and everything outside was quiet.

So I can force my ears to hear music even if no radio or any music device is on.

I also figured out how to control my brains in a way that I can think 3 times as fast.

The last thing my parents don't know about is I am a very good swordsman. I secretly practice the Katana (sword) which is my room. Im a total samurai.

lionhead · **Sat Apr 02, 2005 3:30 am**

My secret is that my signature was actually an April fools joke.....Like no one knew that.

Please someone say he fell for it or else it was for nothing!

ACDC Girl · **Sat Apr 02, 2005 12:13 pm**

Something that i never told anyone else before? Ok ummm.... I sleep with stuffed animals.

StarFury · **Sat Apr 02, 2005 6:50 pm**

When im around people in real life i get really paranoid. I feel inderior to most of my friends.

Leo Wyatt · **Mon Apr 04, 2005 7:51 am**

ssssssh I bought Charlie Elite Force 2 for his birthday well I bought it early so in July I will mail it to him.

Captain Dappet · **Mon Apr 04, 2005 12:09 pm**

zero · **Mon Apr 04, 2005 2:37 pm**

Starbuck · **Mon Apr 04, 2005 4:00 pm**

my secret..... hm....... I sometimes "see things before they happen". Kinda like precognition. I'll just be anywhere and then I'll get this feeling of really strong dejavu and then I see stuff. Then it usually happens a day or two later.

zero · **Mon Apr 04, 2005 4:11 pm**

That kinda happens to me too, But I usually know or think something will happen... maybe even see it happening, and it will happen!

a secret of mine is... I am attracted to someone on STV.com
lol

Jeff Miller · **Mon Apr 04, 2005 4:27 pm**

I worry alot sometimes, it doesn't happen so often but I do.

lionhead · **Mon Apr 04, 2005 4:47 pm**

zero · **Mon Apr 04, 2005 4:48 pm**

^ I didn't know I said it was funny. I think it is very sad what happens to the seals. I wouldn't mind if they were shot in the head... But c'mon. Is that what you are talking about? If not... then I am lost!