Beyond Life.......Lies A Soul In Bondage

Lxe · **Mon Feb 10, 2003 6:48 pm**

very pretty, one of my fav. songs
Unashamed is written by Troy Taylor, Stephanie Seizman, Darius Good, and Luke Paternol.

Voy_Girl · **Wed Feb 12, 2003 3:16 pm**

So the credits go to them... But your feelings and interpretions are bound to your mind

ThomasEugeneParis4 · **Sun Apr 13, 2003 1:34 am**

I have to say your words so much touched me deeply. I commend you on your outstanding display of work and look so forward to reading more. You have a professional writers touch of art

@Chuckles · **Sun Apr 13, 2003 1:46 am**

that was really good angel, I read all of it

Lxe · **Tue Apr 15, 2003 4:36 pm**

right now I'm in transition. it's one thing to say it and it is another to convince my heart, I really can't say no to people when they are in need. It's not in my nature to cut people out of my life or cut them off. I know it's not healthy to listen to people tell me I'm not right for this or that, and I can't get anything done because I never understand what is going on.
For the life of me I will never understand why people feel the need to explain things to me. I would understand if I have a question to ask and they explain, but what they are doing is explaining to me when I understand everything about what is going on.
In the end, like I said I'm only making myself miserable letting people do this to me. I need to get to the point of thinking of myself and no one else.
Now my transition I'm going through is do I want and can I leave them hanging when they treat me like dirt?? And getting to the point of recognizing that I'm the one in pain when they do this and they're not going to think of me when they leave. Also that it is my decision to say look can't take this no more I tried to make it work, now it's time for me to leave.
It's not in my nature to ignore people and it's gonna take time to do this. I have to do it for me. I'm the kind of person to think of others now it's time to think of me, I have to convince my heart that I come first which isn't an easy thing to do for me, I think of others first.

Voy_Girl · **Wed Apr 16, 2003 1:38 pm**

That's good!!

ThomasEugeneParis4 · **Wed Apr 16, 2003 9:36 pm**

I very much enjoyed reading it

Lxe · **Sat May 17, 2003 12:48 pm**

I have gone through a lot of things that taught me to value every minute, even when you are in pain,and depressed, cherish your life. that will help with a lot of things. love help me get through the storm, love helped me get though the void. Love helped me when things we'ren't the greatest. it will take a while before you feel better. but in the end you you will feel that the weight has been lifted. joy will fill your life, hope will carry you though, love will free you.

Voy_Girl · **Sun May 18, 2003 2:00 pm**

Very true!

Lxe · **Mon May 19, 2003 4:48 am**

love has the ability to see you for who you are. It will not judge , label, ascertain what perceptions people see. it has the ability to see the truth.
love brings the rain, sunshine, rainbows into your life. love will bring storms in the time of sadness and stir the souls of others. when you feel you can't go on, or take what is considered to be volatile, blatant prosecution. the storm will bring forth the strength and courage to carry you through.

Lxe · **Tue Jul 22, 2003 6:49 am**

right now I have to decide if I want this heartache. people will talk to me when they see me, I have a lot asociations more than I have time with friends. I see a lot of people that have families and friends. I see alot of people that have their birthdays celebrated, or anything that they do as an accomplishment is celebrated. me? I am stuck in this dead end, thankless job. I am here to make things better for tomorrow. sometimes I need to feel loved. I don't remember the last time I felt loved and cherished. I just remember doing my job, just being here for people when they need me. I feel like I'm on call 24 hours a day. when ever you need me, what ever you need I am here.
you know people just don't stop and look at beauty anymore. they just are out to make money as fast as they can, anyway they can, they don't even care if anyone got hurt, or if anyone is in need they just care what they can get for themselves. what they can acomplish for the right price or right image. their motto is what is in it for me. what do I get out of this.
what happen to our values? what happen to being a whole community? what happen to hospitality? where you offer what you have. where you welcome someone to your home and really make them feel welcome.
when people have something and anyone who needs it is welcome to it. no holds barred just offer it to them open heartedly.
what ever happen to honor? just honor a person for who they are. not just because they have money or look beautiful like an angel. honor their soul, their beliefs. what happen to this world we live in?

Voy_Girl · **Tue Jul 22, 2003 8:20 am**

You really come up with things worth giving a thought!

Lxe · **Thu Jan 05, 2006 2:26 pm**

I am so angry. angry at the world angry at people. they don't listen to what I have to say. it is taking all my training and all my might not to curse at them. I have to remember why I took this job. I have to remember that I feel love and joy and they are my feelings. and I have not felt them in a while. I have to remember that I took this job and I have to remember that I am exorcising forgiveness. and tell people hey you were hurt please forgive yourself and forgive them for what they felt and took out on you
I am trying to tell them that and trying to do that myself.