Trying To Find Love

[Leo Wyatt]

Trying To Find Love: By Debra Whitsel



It was the year 1990, I was in the ninth grade and I was not popular with the other teenagers. I was picked on and slammed into lockers. I really have not done anything for the other kids to pick on me. I was just an out cast I guess because of my up bringing. The ninth grade was hard for me to get through but little did I know the tenth grade would be much harder.

I had about four friends that accepted me for who I am. But, they get picked on too for hanging around me. They stood their ground and I knew they was my real friends. I was always in the basic classes cause I knew I was not ready for the advance classes. I was in remedial reading which I knew I didn't belong there at all. I just went to fast on the BSAP test just to get finished. I hated those tests.


A lesson learned very well too. My reading remedial teacher Ms. Love, I thought she was the meanest teacher. She found out that I didn't need to be in her class but made me stay to teach me a lesson. I thank God that she did. I learned something. In second quarter the class would switch and I would have to go to computer lab for a semister. While the other computer lab students went into MS. Loves class.

I fell for a guy name Scott. He had blonde hair and blue eyes. He and I started talking. This guy Jeremy liked me too but he was jealous. Jeremy and Scott was best friends. I started going out with Scott and Jeremy told lies after lies to get him and me to break up. It did happened. I was devastated. Jeremy acted like he was sorry and tried to comfort me.

I was a fool to fall for Jeremy. One month later he moved without saying goodbye. I was alone and not sure what to do. All the boys made fun of me all the time cause I had auburn hair. I asked my mom to dye my hair blonde to see if they would have a change of heart.

My mom dyed my hair and not much changed happened really. They still made fun of me. One of my friends Michael said you should not have dyed your hair cause I loved your red hair. He took me as I am. We dated but he moved to Iowa.

I waited for awhile before dating again cause I didn't want to be like the other girls in school and be called a ho. A year later in the tenth grade, my friend Paul kept bugging me to go out with him. He was over weight but I felt sorry for him. A girl who only weighed ninety-nine pounds was going out with a two hundred and seven pound boy. People did talk like ,'' A beautiful girl like you going out with a fat boy.'' I always told them, well you never really gave me a chance now wonder why I am dating him.''


From October to Feb, we dated. It was not good either. He beat me all through the relationship. I would not have sex with him cause I believed no sex before marriage. He cheated on me but stupid me took him back.
He raped me in Feb. 92. My mom called me a wh*re and didn't believe me, but my dad did and took me to the hospital.

The school wouldn't do anything of couse Paul was the principal's son. The police did. Yes there was court and I hated it too. But, I survived.

I was so depressed and hurt . Noone could take away the pain that I was in. I should have left him. But, I finally saw the light. I thought I am over with men. But, my Aunt Judy told me not all men are bad and I know one that will treat you right. Even though I quit the tenth grade. A high school drop out, was not sure to take another try on love.

My Aunt took me over Charlie's dad's house where he was living at the time. He worked the erd shift and they woke him up just to meet me. It was sweet but they shouldn't woke him up. But, glad they did too. He walked in the room and I was like the most gorgeous man have walked in.
He was to die for and he looked like my prince to come to my rescue.


We didn't talk much. My Aunt gave him my phone number. He didn't call me til two weeks later. He was 21 at the time and I was 17. We talked for two more weeks and this was in March of 92. He finally asked me out. I said yes. We dated for two months and I knew he was the one. He treated me with love and respect. He was a christian and he also didn't believe in sex before marriage but we came close to having sex but stopped.

On June 28 of 1992, we got married. Six months later, I was pregnant with our first son Allen.


I told this many times before probably but it was true love. Charlie is my true love. I love him with all my heart even though he aggravates me to deaf. June 28 , 92 to 2005 ummmm pretty good, 13 years and many more.

[Leo Wyatt]

I really wanted to write a scifi story but I thought I would write this first. Just to get it out. My love for Charlie

[zero]

Awe..... how sweet!!

That was really nice, Deb.

Now, if I were to write a story about my loves/lovers ... hehe, lets just say it would be arround 10 pages!

Juuuuust kidding I'm not that bad! .... yet!

[Leo Wyatt]

Thanks.... I thought I never get through writing it.

[nadia]

Thats good Deb

[Leo Wyatt]

When my head quits hurting, I will write what happened in between then and now.